Serendipitously, yesterday morning, I was able to go to Mass. Since I had begun writing about the various challenges to the concept of accepting everything as coming from the Will of God, it was on my mind. My buoyant spirit upon embarking this endeavor was slightly checked by a memory of the end of the book of Job when he actually encounters God. Job puts his hand over his mouth and basically says, “You are God and I am not. You do whatever you want to do. I’m just going to be quiet now.” Well, guess where the first reading was from today? Yup. The book of Job. It is in the middle, before the aforementioned hand-over-his-mouth. Although some pretty rough things are happening in Job’s life, he says of God,
“He does great things past finding out,
marvelous things beyond reckoning…
Should he come near me, I see him not;
should he pass by, I am not aware of him;
Should he seize me forcibly, who can say him nay?
Who can say to him, “What are you doing?”
How much less shall I give him any answer,
or choose out arguments against him!
Even though I were right, I could not answer him,
but should rather beg for what was due me.
If I appealed to him and he answered my call,
I could not believe that he would hearken to my words.” -Job 9
So, with that reminder, before I proceed with further considering the question of the Will of God, I first would like to bow to it. God IS. I surrender with love. Still wanting to ask the questions, I recognize that most likely in the end, I will just put my hand over my mouth and with wide eyes, merely indicate, “Thank you.”